Sunday, May 21, 2006

A Break In The Complaints?

i really have to wonder if it is possible, i feel like i have to pinch myself. me and my husband have been actually okay with each other over this weekend. after we had a huge fight which included name calling insults dredging up the past. we have somehow reached a truce. i am sure that it is temporary, but i am trying to enjoy it while i can. the whole reason for the fight was that i asked him to get something down from the closet for me, and he then said that i was nagging him and to leave me alone. so long story short i tried to ask him again nicely, and he got pissed, and threw the things onto the floor from the closet breaking several of my momentos from christmas. which got me really upset/pissed/depressed. i dont know, somehow from there we reached a truce. hopefully it will last for a while i really hope so. this truce has been since thursday night. i have to take my test for work tomorrow, and then as soon as the results are back from that, then i will be hired with the company officially and get all the money and perks that come with that, so i really hope that my test and everything else goes okay, because i really want this to happen asap. well since i have been working out at the gym, which i started doing that and watching what i eat on may 10 i have already lost 4 lbs, and it hasnt even been a whole 2 weeks yet, so that is awesome! i was really sick yesterday sneezing no energy runny nose, but i feel a little bit better today, still just dont have much energy. but i did have a nice afternoon today, while everyone was napping i went to the pool in my complex by myself and two guys that live in the complex were there. one of the guys i didnt really know and me and him were being nice to each other and just talking but i thought that he was looking at me like he was interested, so when he finally went home (after a while) the other guy said to me you know he was really looking at you right? (like interested in me) so i said i thought so, but i didnt really pay attention because he has a girlfriend that just isnt in another country right now. so he said oh no he definetly was. and then i said so, guys look at me thats okay. (cause he asked if it bothered me) so then i said you look at me too, and he said yeah i do sometimes, i was definetly looking at you when you were wearing (and then he actually described one of the outfits that i wear). and he said i just cant help myself, but i try not to look when your husband is around cause he would probably try to kill me, and i said yes he probably would. and then he also asked if i had dated black guys before, and i said that i had. (he is black) and that was the end of that. interesting conversation. made me feel very attractive, the whole experience did, it was nice to know that men still find me attractive.

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