i have had a very interesting week, i had an issue with my daughters father, we got into an argument which he started because he was upset with me when i didnt agree with him that exactly every other saturday i would bring my daughter back and forth to his house. i said that if i wasnt able to he was welcome to pick her up at mine. and he threw a fit because he didnt want to do that. and he threatened me with physical violence, said that he would kill me, threatened me with cracking my head open with a golf club, hit the inside of the door of my car with, and took a little piece off the molding of my car. so needless to say i am very upset with him, he didnt even apologize or anything afterward. and my daughter saw all of this, and was right there, that makes it even worse. he had her the next day after this (this happened on tuesday) and i didnt say anything to him and he didnt say anything to me. i didnt really say two words to him, i just got her and left. then my husband found out what happened later that night, and got extremely upset, that i was treated like that and that was said to me, and then i had to hear him going on and on about it. then in the middle of this, with my husband getting upset, my friend comes over, who has a dorm that she lives out most of the time like 3 blocks from me, and she stayed for like an hour and a half just sitting and talking. she also came over last night too, and we hung out for a while talking, which was really nice. i like having her come over and hang out more, we have been friends for a while, and we get along pretty well. the only thing is that in a year she is moving to another state far far away. (or so she says) and the crappy part is that another friend of mine just moved yesterday to another city about two hours away too, everyone is leaving me. "sniff" sniff"
i was freaking out for the past couple of days because my boobs were hurting and i hadnt gotten my period and all of that, and i finally got so happy that i got it yesterday in the early afternoon, but i got a few spots and then it went away. but luckily it came back like normal last night, so now i am happy i have my period and i dont have to deal with any other issues. like being pregnant and having to figure all that out. and here is my vow, i am never going to make myself have to deal with that again. whether it is very good protection, whether it is not having sex, i dont care, i am never going to be in the position again of wondering if i am pregnant who the sperm donor would have been. lol. all joking aside i am never going to do that again.
as of right now, i am supposed to be going over my friends house tomorrow morning, and watching her two kids (or one of her kids, not sure yet), while she works for a little bit in the morning, and then when she comes back we are supposed to all hang out for a little while. of course, i am hopefully not going to be watching them in her house, hopefully she is going to chip in some money so that i can take them all somewhere, because if i am stuck with them all in the house. then i dont know what will happen. because i am going to have however many of her kids i am watching, plus my two. hopefully mine behave well.
okay now for the husband complaints. he made 200.00 doing some work at my sons school, during this week, gave me 40.00 towards the rent, which as of today we are yet again a month behind on, because it is due today and he doesnt have any money saved up for it. he also gave me 20.00 that i asked him for because i needed it, and then that was it, the other 140.00 i have no idea what he did with. i asked him if he wanted me to hold any for him, and he said no, and know i asked him for money today and he said he didnt have any. so he must have somehow blew through that much money in 2 days. i cant imagine how. actually i can i just dont want to think about it. then he hasnt cleaned the house in like days, he just keeps making a mess in the house, leaving his dirty clothes and garbage all over the place, doesnt clean it up, the pile of dishes in the sink just kept growing and growing it was disgusting. so yesterday while my friend was here i had to clean up some. and then he says that he will clean some today. and he didnt clean anything. and then he expects me to do it on my days off, if he isnt going to do it on his days off why should i? sigh. on the up and interesting side i was thinking lately about how i have had so many jerks and dumbies, and other names i could say but wont, come in and out of my life in the past what over a year or around a year...but oh well, you know what i mean, and he has always been there and always supported me through everything. granted he can be an irresponsible pain in the butt, but he has always been there. and when i lost my house in the hurricane he did bail me out and give us all a place to stay. and also in the beginning of our relationship, he got us all an apartment to live when i had to move out of my ex's house going through the divorce, and then the way that he was so upset about how my ex treated me on tuesday with the threat and golf club incident, he may be a real pain in the butt, but he has always been there for me. that is all i am going to say about that right now.
the good thing is that the night job that he has now, he is getting saturday nights off, or at least if all goes well that is what he requested for his schedule and he said that they will be giving it to him. so that is good, at least i will be able to go out on my saturday nights. last saturday i went to the movies by myself, sigh, but tomorrow night me and my friend from work that i go out with sometimes are supposed to be going out, which should be nice. hopefully that goes well. i cant spend too much money so i am going to have to watch what i spend though. but at least i should be able to go out, and not by myself. yeah!!!!!
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