Today Was Full Of Surprises......

And some not so surprising surprises.....

today i woke up not feeling well, not a surprise considering that i havent felt good for the past few days. i woke up with a headache and no energy whatsoever. but i finally end up getting up, then i had to rush so that i wouldnt be late for work. had to drop my daughter off at summer camp (today was her first day), then had to rush to work, barely made it was a minute late to work, but thats okay, cause we have like six minutes to play with before we get in trouble as long as we dont do it all the time. so i barely made it to work, walked in, and found out that the a/c wasnt working since saturday in the building and it was like 90 degrees in there, so we had to wait there for an hour for the manager, and we were dying from the heat while we were waiting, and she finally said that we could leave and come back for noon and we would see what was going on then. so me, one of the other girls that i work with, and my friend who i hang out with from work, all went to the mall. my friend got a whole bunch of clothes which was good for her because she has issues getting clothes that fit, and me and the other girl, who were broke just got one thing each, which was still good, cause i was happy, i got capris that were cute on me and they were what i have been looking for. so that made me happy. and they were on sale too, which made me happier. so that was good, i had to really restrain myself though, cause i wanted so many more things. so then after the mall wen went back to work, and the a/c was fixed and back on so we had to work the rest of the day, but at least we basically got the morning off, and they paid us for it too, which was even better.

then my husband got paid today from his day job, has no clue about when he will be getting paid from his night job, or when that will be that he gets the check, and he said that his check was for 400.00, gave me the 100.00 that he said that he would give me for the money that he kept borrowing from me, and also to help out with the bills and everything, and then he gave me another 200.00 for the rent. and saved the other 100.00 for himself he said. and yet, the rent was due on the 1st so it is offically late now, and i have no idea how he is going to pay it, it is already late and it is now 1075.00 and he only has 200.00 of it saved as of today. so i said to him that he needs to call the office and explain it to them, and see what they say so he said that he was going to call them tomorrow about it. we have been late on our rent for several months now, because i havent been able to help him with it, and even if i was able i am not doing that anymore, i am leaving it as his responsibility, and that would be why, because he just cant do it on his own. not that he doesnt make enough money between the two jobs that he has, he just cant manage his money, and doesnt save he keeps spending it on his things that he wants or feels that he needs. i may do that too, but at least i make sure that all of my bills are paid and my responsibilities are taken care of first. and now his day job has been cutting back his hours to like 15-20 hours a week, which is paying him like nothing, and the night job isnt using him for the 40 hours a week that he had said that they would either, they are only using him for maybe 20 hours this week too, so i dont know what he is going to do, but i already told him that just those hours arent going to make it for the bills, well for any normal person they would, but the way that he spends his money it wont. and i am not his mother, i am not putting myself through the aggravatation of trying to keep him from spending money, and besides we end up arguing and then he goes and does what he wants to do anyway. so whats the point in going through all of that anyway then.

i was talking to my friend from work and mentioned what my other friend had did to me, about how i had told her about my little issue that i was freaking out about, and that she had said it all to the guy, and what he had said. and she said that wasnt right that she told him, and you didnt want her too. and thinking about it she is right. that really wasnt right that she had said something to him, i dont know why she did. i mean it isnt like i had told her not to say anything to him, but hello, of course i didnt want him to know, if i had i would have told him myself (with her translating of course) but that should have been my decision. and being that i knew that i wasnt and told her that, why would she even say anything to him in the first place. so that aggravated me a little bit thinking about it. but whatever. i just have to be careful what i say to her i suppose if i dont want it repeated, i dont like that though, i really dont like people like that. whatever, i really hope that she doesnt do it again, and i guess i have to watch what i say around her.

then i have another friend that i hate to admit, i am a little jealous of, which isnt good, and i am not proud of it. but she has everything that i want for myself and cant seem to get. she has a responsible husband who pays all the bills and takes care of everything for her, and lets her control the money to make sure that he doesnt blow it, he makes really good money (like 23.00 an hour so they dont have to struggle), they just moved to another city a few hours away, where they got a 3 bedroom apartment for like 900.00 a month, which is really cheap, and it isnt even an apartment it is a duplex with yard and everything, she has a baby which is like 9 months old, and she stays at home and takes care of her kids, and the house. so there you go, the life that i want and she is so blissfully happy, i am not saying htat her life hasnt always been perfect cause it hasnt been, and that doesnt deserve it, i dont want to take what she has from her, not that i could anyway, but even if i could i wouldnt, i just want that for myself too. and those are the things that it seems that no matter what i do i cant have. oh well, such seems to be my life.