An Exhausting Day

my day today was very tiring. i ended up babysitting both of my friends children, plus my two children which added up to be four children that i was taking care of, all of them under the age of seven. i had my daughter who is going to be seven, my son who just turned four, her daughter who will be turning four, and her other daughter who is three and a half months old. so i had my hands full. i have to say that i handled them well, i had good control over them, and the ironic thing was that my son was the worst behaved out of all of them, and my daughter was the best behaved out of all of them. there were a few things that added stress that could have been avoided like my friend not thinking that i was going to have to watch the baby, so she didnt have any food or anything for her to eat or drink, so i had to run to publix and cvs with all of the kids, and the baby starting to whine because she was hungry to get her food. so that experience could have been done without, and wasnt my fault. so other then publix and cvs, we also went to mcdonalds for breakfast and then went to chuck e cheese's for them to play and eat. we were there for over four hours, ugh. my friend met us there when she got out of work, so at least i didnt have to worry about watching all of them there the whole time. then we went to her house afterward and the kids watched a movie and we sat and talked. but i started to really not feel well, my head was killing me, and i just felt so tired and had no energy. so i ended up leaving. not that early though, i left at 6pm, and i left my house to go start watching her kids at 8am, so me and my kids were out for a while. but even still, my kids were whining that they didnt want to go, and my friend was disappointed that i wasnt staying more too, but i just couldnt. i felt so bad that i even cancelled on my other friend who i was supposed to go out with tonight. she didnt sound upset she sounded like she understood and she has cancelled on me like this a couple of times before, so it isnt like she has never done it to me. so hopefully she does understand. i feel so bad that so i am not going anywhere. i am at home, trying to feel better. which i hope that i do. i feel a little bit better now. the funny thing though is that when i was dealing with all of the kids by myself i was thinking to myself that i could do this, i could handle this everyday. the four kids made it harder, but three kids i could easily handle. it made me feel good about myself at least there is something that i can do right? anyway.

in the middle of me feeling like crap and being over my friends house and wanting to leave because i felt so bad, one of my other friends calls (the one that has been coming over my house a few times last week, and is now officially having a place like two or three blocks away from me that she stays at almost all the time) and says that when my husband did something to her car the other night, trying to keep her brake lights from constantly being on because they were stuck and running down her battery that he had damaged some things on her car, and that it now wouldnt start at all and that she had a mechanic looking at it and that instead of being a problem that could have been fixed with a 4.00 part that it was now going to be extremely expensive for it to be fixed. and even though he had offered to look at her car, and she had agreed to it, and therefore being that she had agreed to him looking at her car, she shouldnt blame him anyway, she does. saying that he had messed up her car worse then it was, and that it was now going to be really expensive for her to fix because of what she did. and then she wants me to tell him that she is extremely mad at him. so i told her that i wasnt going to tell her that, cause then he would have gotten pissed off at her and then i am sure that he wouldnt have wanted her to come over anymore. so i said that i would tell him that she said that he had messed up her car, which he is saying that he didnt, and that he doesnt know what she is talking about, and that it just figures that she is going to blame him for it when he didnt do it. sigh. so i just hope that their isnt going to be anything between the two of them now.

then for the past few weeks i had noticed that my dog had this lump on his back that didnt seem to be going away. so today i sort of messed with it more to try to figure out what it was, and it was a scab, so i pulled it off, and still couldnt figure out what it was. and then underneath where it was it is still raised and it is red, like it is a sore or something because it looks like it was bleeding or has blood in it almost like a blister. so i still cant figure out what it is, he has another one that seems to be forming on his back too, or it already formed i cant tell which one. so i am worried about that now. because i dont have the money to be taking him to the vet now, and i am supposed to be taking him in about a month to have his annual checkup and rabies shot and all of that done. so i tried to look up about it online, but i cant really find anything because i dont know what it is. and what to look it up under, so i found some antibiotic lotion in my closet that i had bought for him a little while ago, it said that it was supposed to prevent infection, help healing, stop itching, so i put some of that on it. i dont know if it will help or not i hope so. i also hope that it doesnt make it worse. he is also missing a small piece of fur now from where the scab came off. so now he has a little bald spot on his back. great. now i have something else to worry about. thats all i need. maybe by some miracle that lotion will help, and get rid of it, and make it heal. i really hope so. i remember he had a cut on his nose and it helped that heal. i dunno.

here are some pictures from today: