Yet Another Exhausting Day?

i dont know what is going on with me lately, but i have just been so tired lately, i have absoluetly no energy and get tired easily, and get very cranky and irritated easily too. ugh. like today i didnt really do anything major, took the kids to kmart, and did a little shopping and also to publix to do some grocery shopping. and that was about it, i had told them that if they were good in publix that i would take them to the pool to go swimming, but they werent good so i didnt take them. which they, especially my son, got upset with me about, but oh well. and he was the one that was really bad too. he also starts fights with my daughter, and he is the little one, go figure. sigh. so we came home from going to those stores, and almost as soon as i got home, i just got so tired and exhausted, and had no energy at all. so i laid down on the couch, and almost fell asleep. so i decided to go to lay down in my bed. where i did fall asleep for like two hours from like 4:30-6:30pm, and then when i got up i had to start cooking dinner and everything, because i hadnt done anything before i went and laid down. so dinner was late, we didnt eat until like 7:50 which is very late for us, usually we eat at 6pm. but i cooked a good meal, and we all ate and it was good. my husband was working of course so it was just me and them, and considering that i laid down for two hours and left them by themselves they were pretty good while i was sleeping. i have gotten two different theories of course from two different people on why i have been feeling like this, one theory is that it is because i have my period and i am losing nutrients in my body, and i am of course not taking vitamins to replenish them. why i dont remember feeling like this in previous months then, i dont know. and the other theory is that i am battling something like a flu, and that is taking my energy. i really dont know, i guess i could try taking some vitamins and see if that helps. i dont have any though, so i would have to see if i could get some.

while i was at kmart today, i bought two different things that i am hoping will help my dogs skin issue. i bought oatmeal shampoo which i shampooed him with like right away as soon as i got home, which is supposed to help with little skin irritations, itching and things like that. so far he doesnt seem to be itching or biting himself as much as he used to, so i really hope that is helping, and then the other thing that i got was something for hair loss, itching, biting, and all of that too, it is a liquid that i guess you put on the spots. i have to read more about it, but that sounded good too. i really hope that these help. i cant afford a vet bill to try to figure out what is wrong with him.

i talked to my friend that i was over her house yesterday and watched her kids. she is upset because of the issues that she is facing with her "husband" and that he is using her and is going to be leaving in a few weeks and not coming back. the bad thing is that with all that he is using her and doesnt love her, she says that she loves him and that it is killing her to be dealing with this. and she has the baby with him too. and he doesnt even seem to care about the baby. that is the sad part. so i guess no matter how bad you think you have it, or how upset you get with your problems there is always someone who has more issues or problems then you. but anyway, she sounded so upset i was asking her too come over my house and we could have spent time together, but she was saying that she couldnt because she had to get a crib or something in a city that is the opposite of where i am, it would have taken her like an hour at least to get from there to me. so anyway, she didnt end up coming over though. she did say something interesting to me though, she said i hope that you arent mad at me, but i told him (the guy that is staying with her) about what you told me about how you were freaking out about being pregnant. and he said that even though he isnt really ready for a baby now, that he isnt like that and he would have taken care of everything with you and the baby. and i said to her that i was really freaking out because i wouldnt have had somewhere to stay, and she said that he knew that and said that he would have taken care of that. hmmmm. interesting, at least maybe all guys arent pieces of crap. who knows though, he was saying that after she said that i wasnt pregnant, who knows what would have really happened if i was. he could have gone back to his country and never seen me again. if he really wanted to. she also made a comment to me about how he never talks about me, and i dont talk about him. and i guess she was trying to find out what happened. and i never did answer her. i guess that i could have told her but i dont really know exactly what to say. other then that i got tired of it i guess. the drive back and forth there several times a week, the sleeping in and missing work that one day because the alarm wasnt set properly which wasnt only his fault but still, the using all my gas and extra money there and back, and also, the most important thing i think was him not speaking hardly any english and me speaking hardly any spanish. so i guess the lack of communication. i guess that is everything. i just seemed to get tired of the whole situation i guess. he was okay to play with, but i dont really think that a relationship would or could have happened even if i had given it a chance, which i didnt i guess. but oh well, whats done is done. and why isnt he asking about me or talking about me then, or asking her how i am doing? he isnt making the effort either so heck with it, i am not interested right now in any men anyway, that last freaking me out experience i think was enough to last me a while, i dont want to ever have that issue again.