There Goes That Mother Of The Year Award-Again

i put my daughter to bed last night and about a half hour later she got up saying that her ear hurt. so i told her to go back to sleep, but then she started to cry saying that it really hurt. so i yelled at her to go back to sleep, and she kept crying saying that it really hurt. so i gave her tylenol then and told put her to bed and then she fell asleep. when she got up this morning and i asked her how she felt she said that her ear still hurt bad. so i asked my mom to gake her to the doctor instead of going to school today and she agreed. so the doctor saw her and said that she had a really bad ear infection and gave her some medicine for the cough that she had and for the ear infection. so now i feel bad because i brushed it off in the beginning and told her to lay down and get some sleep. and then i even yelled at her. i only did that because she is always a drama queen and she was acting fine before she laid down. i still feel bad about it though. and then i couldnt even be with her today, or take her to the doctor, i had to go to work instead. so i felt bad about that too.

some people at my job are going crazy, actually basically all of us are, because we had found out that we are getting bought over by another big company, and now we dont know what is going on with our jobs. so know no one knows what is going on, and everyone is flipping out. i am trying to not get to upset about it, because what i am trying to do is just keep reminding myself that no matter how much i worry about it and get upset about it, it is going to make any difference in what happens in the long run with it. so anyway.

i got the results today from the mri test that i had to have done on my knee and ankle, only for the moron doctor to tell me that i had swelling in my knee and that my ankle looked like it was strained, but that there was nothing wrong with me and nothing further that could be done, and then he made a comment like i might have to live with it like this, so i said i am in pain i have to live like this for the rest of my life? and he didnt answer me. just discharged me from his care, and gave me a 0% disability, basically saying that there was nothing wrong with me. so i got aggravated got the mri results, ordered my medical records, and also got the number to my caseworker, and i dont know what i am going to do from here. i know that i am in pain, and that is not normal, especially being that it has been over 2 months. so i dont know, it upsets me.

the guy that i was supposed to hook up with last weekend (the one that dumped me twice) instant messaged me a few times yesterday, saying that he had been thinking about me. and of course just basically making it sound like he wanted to screw and that was it. which was what he had been saying all along this time, but still. it would be nice if it was a little something else to, but no. anyway, he was saying that he didnt know if he was going to have the money for a hotel, but that we could still hook up somewhere in like a dark corner or something like that, give me a break, that is so not what i am looking for. then he said that he should know if he has the money for it by tonight, and that he would let me know. then after that he said be right back, and signed off, and then he still wasnt back on for like 10 minutes, so i went to bed, and signed off and that was it, i havent heard from him since. i dont really care right now anyway though, because with everything that i have going on, and especially that he just wants to do that, and nothing else even if it is in like a dark corner or something, give me a break, i dont even think that i am interested right now.