It Figures Even More

i had plans with my friend this weekend like i had said, to go out last night, and to dye each others hair and spend a little time together tonight. but last night we didnt end up going out. i didnt hear from her about it until like 5pm yesterday and we were planning on meeting at 8pm, and she said that she hadnt realized that she had something to do for her husband and that she wouldnt be able to make it. so we ended up not going, and it sucked even more that she waited that long to tell me because i was looking forward to it all day, and also i was even halfway dressed and everything else. so it just sucked and i was very disappointed last night. especially since the other guy had cancelled on me for friday night, at almost the last minute as well, i was supposed to be leaving at 8pm and he had cancelled on me at like 7pm. then that night when i was getting ready to sign off my messenger, he messaged me saying that he was sorry, blah, blah, so i ignored it because i was tired and getting ready to sign off. so the next day, i texted him saying that i was sorry that i didnt get his message but i must have been signing off at the same time that he was messaging me, and he didnt answer me then or since. so whatever. i dont really care as much as you would think anymore, because him doing this reminded me that he used to do this a lot to me, break dates and things that he said to me. and then of course there is the great way that he dumped me twice, that is even better to remember. my husband has been walking basically on eggshells with me, i guess because he knows that the slightest thing that he does to me, is going to make me loss it with him. if i had the money to do it by myself i would have kicked his ass out the moment that i figured out that he had pawned my necklace. which by the way now seems to be my necklace and my three piece set of gold wedding bands, because they are also missing from the box that i kept that necklace in. even though he claims that he had nothing to do with them being missing, i of course dont believe him, i know where i had put them and they arent there anymore, that whole box is empty. so he has to be the one responsible for that. he said to me yesterday, because i guess that he felt really bad, that he is going to be getting my necklace back out of there, and that if he had lost my wedding bands that he would have to replace them, so that wasnt him admitting that he did it but that was pretty close. what he said that meant something to me, sort of anyway, because i dont really believe much of what he says because he never follows through on it, but anyway he said that he realized how messed up what he did was and that he was going to do better now and quit all of the stuff that he was doing that wasnt good for him. so lets see, so far today there hasnt been any change in him or what he is doing, he is still his same self so far. so lets see what happens. i really hope that he gets better, i want what is best for him. even if in the end me and him dont stay together, which i am sure that is what will happen, eventually when i can that will be it we will be done, i still want him to be okay and do good for his son, because i want him to still see his son, and i also want him to do good for his son. but i am so used to him saying things and not following through on them that who knows what will happen. i have to finish this now, because i am going over my friends house to dye our hair and be there for a little while. unless that gets cancelled on me too, or something happens, but i guess on the up side at least i got some relaxation this weekend, which is something that i didnt get last weekend in orlando/kissimmee that is for sure.