So So Tempting

WARNING

I AM NOT FEELING LIKE THIS RIGHT NOW, I WROTE THIS A LITTLE WHILE AGO AND WANTED TO POST IT>>>>>>AGAIN THIS IS NOT HOW I AM FEELING NOW>>>>>

i just wanted to put this in here because i when i found it now and read it it sounds really good.

so so tempting, i want to do it so bad.
they say the medicine helps,
they can see a difference, i dont feel that much
of a difference, all i feel right now is an overwhelming temptation.
that temptation to feel the pain,
that feels so good, and hurts so bad.
this feeling that no one else understands.
they just say stop it, or dont do it,
like it is that simple.
like a magic wand can just be waved and then the
issues can just go away.
i wish that was how life worked,
that you could wave a wand,
and all your issues would go away.
but that doesnt happen.
so unfortunately,
you have to try to cope with the issues that you have,
and hope that things will get better.
but it seems that they never get better,
that there is always something coming up.
whether it is work related, health related,
relationship related, child related, or whatever it may be,
it sees like there is always something.
something that you have to try to cope with.
and no matter how hard you try,
it is a battle to keep it under control.
and then the feeling of alone,
when people reject you
and no one understands what you are going through.
why wont someone understand.