That Is It, That Does It

well, i am now done, that is it, i am so annoyed it isnt even funny. me and the guy had made plans tonight that we were supposed to be doing something. and we had set up this afternoon that we were supposed to be spending the night at this hotel that i knew about that was pretty inexpensive. and he had said that it was a plan, everything was good, blah, blah. i called the hotel, and the owner said that he would hold the room for me, and luckily i didnt give him my credit card number or any other information other then my name, because not even two minutes after i got off the phone with the hotel, he texted me and said never mind. and that was all that he said. so i texted him back and said never mind what. so he said something came up. so i answered and said so never mind to what everything, and he said yes, im sorry, so i answered i guess i should be used to it by now huh, and he didnt answer me back after that. so that whole thing was a complete waste of my time. i am pretty much done with him, this is the second weekend in a room that there was plans and he cancelled them on me. this was even worse then the last time, because last time we didnt actually have plans for what we were doing. this time we had plans and i even called the hotel and everything. so this time was way worse. bullshit. i swear i really cant stand men, that is why i really think that i am better off alone. i think that it is really better that way. or at least as alone as i can get with having a roommate as my so called husband, but he started a night job and is working at 3 nights a week, he just started doing that. so at least even if i dont go out at night once a week, at least i should at least have some nights to myself, after i put the kids to bed of course. i dont know, it looks like what i am looking for in a guy is incredibly hard to find. which you wouldnt think that it would be but who knows i guess. apparently it is. all i want is someone that will treat me good, he doesnt even have to be rich. i know that they say the first time you marry it should be for love, but the second time should be for money. but honestly, my second time is done already, and look how that ended up. i just want to have someone treat me good, and that seems like it is so hard to find. well, that it is for my ranting on that specific subject. i had to spent the morning and a little part of the afternoon with my daughters father, helping him with his finances and his documents and getting everything in order. while i was with him, we also went for breakfast, went to a store, and i also did two loads of laundry. and he also tried the very hardest that he could to get me into his bed with him and have sex with me. which i of course wasnt having and was very not interested but still. so that didnt happen, much to his disappointment of course. you would think that by now he would have given up, but no. at least the kids had a nice time. which is what matters the most. when we were leaving walmart, they had a fundraiser and they were face painting kids to help raise money. so her dad made a donation so that both of the kids could get their faces painted, so my daughter got a cat face, and my son got supermans logo on him, it looked cool. once i get the pictures developed i will have to put them on here of that. that was about it for today. so i am home now and have been since like 3pm just relaxing, not really that upset about the fact that i am home, because i am just enjoying the relaxation at this moment.