Why Do I Bother?

this is just going to have to be a quick update, because i just want to go to sleep right now, that is how frustrated that i am with everything. my son started to feel better, thank god, but he had a 103.7 fever on monday and i had to end up staying home with him and taking care of him on monday. i took him to the doctor, and then said that he had the flu and that he should feel better soon, that isnt something that they give antibiotics for. so now he is feeling better. which is good. the bad thing is that monday night my daughter started feeling sick, and now she hasnt really been feeling good since then which stinks. i feel bad for her, especially being that tomorrow is thanksgiving. her fever hasnt really gotten that high, today it only said 100.5 but her stomach has been really upset and she has been throwing up, so i hope that she feels better for tomorrow. when i went back to work on tuesday, i was advised by my manager that i had missed a meeting, and that the meeting basically stated that the location that i work for is going to be closing and that my time there is limited. the date that is my last day is may 31st there, and that is it. so they are giving incentives if you stay there to the end, basically for me it is that if i stay there til that date, then i will receive a month and a half of pay extra on my last check. so that will give me that much time to look for, find and start another job. so i have decided that i will do that. the first week or two i will probably just take off to relax and be with my kids. that will be nice. then probably after being home that long i will start getting antsy anyway. my "husband" and i discussed it and he said that if i couldnt find a job during that time, that he would have to just get a second job and that i would have to stay home and worry about the kids until i found something, and that he would have to pay my share of the bills with that. that amazed me because that is not something that he would normally say. but hopefully it doesnt come to that, cause i really dont want to test him on if that would really happen. my last day of work is also the last day of school for my daughter. so that works out in a very interesting way. i guess that means that i will be home with my daughter a lot, or hopefully not, i would really like to relax for a week or two, and then get a job quickly and start the job, i just hope that i can find a job that pays me as much as i make now, if not more. and also that offers the same benefits and insurance comparable to what i have now. the kids got to watch the movie cars, which i rented for them over the weekend, so they watched that twice and i just gave it back. i just took out now ice age 2, so they will be watching that over the weekend. so i guess that we will see if they like it. well, the guy never contacted me the last time that i blogged in here which was sunday, and when i heard from him on monday he said that he had gotten involved in a football game and basically i guess that he had forgotten about me. so we talked for a little while that night (which was monday night) and then he said quite suddenly that he had to go, and play softball, and that he would talk to me tomorrow. he also said during that conversation about us going out tues or weds, so i said that weds would be better. then last night, we talked for quite a while, probably about an hour and a half, and we agreed that we were going to go out tonight, the time that i would leave the house, stuff like that. he said that he would text me more about (like what we were doing because he was going to surprise me, and stuff like that) so today, at about 3:30pm he texts me saying that he is going to have to reschedule. and then he sends me another text saying that he would talk to me tonight. so i texted him back why does he have to reschedule, and he texted me back that it was a family thing and that he was sorry. and that was that, after that i didnt even bother to respond, i was so annoyed. so he got online at about 10pm or so now, and said that he was sorry but that his aunt was in from out of town and that she wanted to see them and couldnt wait until tomorrow. so now he is saying hes sorry, blah blah blah. that he should have told his family no, but he is a pussy. so i guess that we will see what happens with that. i am still pretty annoyed.