Before Concert Update

i realized that i forgot to say what i had done yesterday, not that it was anything that interesting, but i usually try to say what i have done. so yesterday, i met my parents at walmart, did my walmart shopping, got the shoes/boots really that i was looking for to match my outfit for the concert tonight. then took the kids to burger king with my parents and we talked for a while and the kids played in the playground there while we did that. then i came home, and the kids, my "husband" and i went grocery shopping at publix. then we went to dinner at pollo tropical. and that was about it for yesterday. as i said yesterday, i didnt come across the guy online last night, so that was it for that yesterday. then this morning, i did a lot of cleaning (i also did some yesterday) and vacuumed and gave my car a wash, took the kids to the playground near my house, and also did some shopping at cvs. that was about it.

came across the guy online this afternoon, and we i'med for a little while here is a sum up of the conversation. the reason that he wasnt online last night was because he had a wedding to go to, and everyone went downtown after and he wasnt expecting that. he got my message that i left him last night and also was thinking of me last night, because he was dancing with some people and wished it was me that he was dancing with, because it is a horrible tease and he knew that i wouldnt have been teasing. we kind of went back and forth for a while with him asking me if i wanted "it" again, and me saying maybe and not really giving him an answer. he did say that he hadnt slept with anyone last night, or anyone else since us, so i asked why and he said that he remembered my rule about if we are having sex that we dont have sex with anyone else. so i asked him if that meant he was planning on sleeping with me again, and he said that he didnt want to be with anyone else again, that it was the best that he ever had, no b.s. he asked how it was for me, and i said that it was good. then he said how long would it be before we were naked again, and i answered awfully assuming arent we? dont lie, you really are wondering that. and he said yes, asked about me wearing a skirt. so then i answered him about that, and told him that he was going to have to think about a better location then the car, and then he started suggesting a hotel room, beach, and another car. and the house if they werent there, and werent supposed to be back for a while. then he said that about the hotel, he would want to do that on a friday or saturday night because he wanted to spend the night with me and wake up next to me, so i answered that it would have to be waking up pretty early though, he asked why, and i answered that i would have to be at my house relatively early (because of the kids, and letting "my husband" get to work, but i didnt say that. i honestly dont know how i would work that one with him, i think that he would get suspicious, but anyway). he answered thats cool, so i asked him if he was sure, and he said yes, and that he wasnt thinking that there would be much sleep going on anyway. then the end was that he said that he had to get off, and asked if i would be on later. i said that i wouldnt be on tonight, and that i would be getting off at 3:30pm. (which is not correct, i am probably going to sign at 4pm), but he said that he would look for me this afternoon and that if not he would talk to me at some point tomorrow. and that was it.

i really havent decided what i want to do about that, i do like him a lot, but i am just scared that i am going to get hurt again, and something is going to happen or it isnt going to work out. he dumped me on my ass with no warning for a really dumb reason, what is to say that couldnt happen again? i am just nervous about this, and then with us having to look for a location, that could go one of two ways, it could be adventorous in the beginning and then get annoying, or it could stay an adventure, i guess that would depend on how it was looked at. i just dont know about the whole situation, it is just confusing me. i am really leaning towards doing it again, and being with him again, i am just scared though. but i really want to be with him again, i really do. he made me feel good, and i really liked him and the way that he treated me and took care of me. it was great.

well, as for my health and my illness right now, i am feeling okay i guess. i have been blowing my nose and sneezing like constantly this morning and afternoon, but that is probably because the antibiotic is causing everything to come out, and other then that i havent taken any medicine today, i am waiting until right before i leave for the concert to take something, because that is when i am going to want it the most. i am just in a weird off mood today for some reason, my sleep last night wasnt that good, probably because i dont feel good and because i have so much on my mind. so maybe no sleep is why my mood has been weird today, i dont know. i had a weird dream last night, that i was back together with (HIM)(not the guy i was just talking about) and that i was happy being back with him. and then i asked him something (i think that it was something about before he was back with me, when he was with the girl that he is now), and he said something about not bringing it back up. so i didnt) and that is all that i remember. my stomach thankfully is still okay. i was getting a little cramps in it that it thought was gas so after what happened last time when i was on this medication i immediately took some gas x and now it seems to have settled down. so that is good. i havent heard from my friend yet today, which is fine she had said that she wasnt going to be here until 5pm, and that she would call when she was getting off the highway (which is basically right here) so that is fine i am not expecting to here from her yet. now to add more to my aggravation this issue that i had with the wings place, where they were supposed to be not charging me for the food because it was 2 hours late and messed up is coming back to haunt me. even though they said that they werent going to charge me, and i didnt sign for the credit card charge, they charged it took my credit card anyway. so now i am trying to get a hold of the manager, to tell that, and i have been told 2 times over 3 hours that the manager wasnt there and that she would call me back. and i am still waiting since noon for that. then with the publix sub thing they had called and left a message on my "husbands" phone that they had found nothing wrong with it when they had analyzed it. how they could have found nothing wrong with it when there were maggots in it, i couldnt tell you that. so i called today and that manager wasnt there, so i left a message for him to call me tomorrow. then i also need to call my cell phone company tomorrow and find out more information about cancelling my service when my contract is up, when exactly it is up, and how much of a remaining bill that i will have to pay when i do that. so glad that i have tomorrow off, i have to make sure that i get all these things done tomorrow. well, at least i should have the chance tomorrow to get all this done. well, i gotta get going, the kids are getting restless i told them that i would take them outside to ride their bikes so i better get going, then my "husband" is supposed to be coming home, and i am going to start getting ready to leave once he gets home. i'll try to update tomorrow