Being Sick Really Freaking Sucks

so this is the weekend that i have been looking forward to for like 2 months, because this is the weekend of my concert and also the weekend that i have a 3 day weekend because i took monday off too. and i just had to get sick and catch whatever it was that everyone else has had, especially at my sick, because every one there has beeen sick. just great. i have been battling a sore throat for a few days, and wasnt doing so bad, but then today knocked me out. the throat was incredibly sore, i was coughing, runny nose, sneezing, and my ears hurt. so i gave up and went to the urgent care center after i got out of work today. i figured that i better go to the doctors and start getting some medicine in me. so i went to the doctor, and got diagnosed with having the same bug that everyone else does (and that is exactly what the doctor said too) and she gave me an antibiotic. it wasnt until i left there that i discovered that was the same medicine that i was on last month when i was sick (which ironically enough i was sick enough to stay home from work a month ago yesterday)that i think upset my stomach so bad last month. so i am just hoping that if it was that medicine that it doesnt do it again, and that maybe it just wasnt the medicine last time. i am kicking myself for not remembering the medicine or what happened to me last time when i took it. oh well, i guess that we will see what happens. worrying about it now will probably not do anything but upset my stomach, i am sure. i talked to my friend about the concert and everything is good to go, she seems excited about going too. hopefully i feel better then i do now, the doctor said that i should though. and she gave me some suggestions for medicine and things to do too, to help. but anyway, me and my friend kind of went over what we are wearing, and she said that she is going to be at my house 2 hours before the concert so that we can finish our plans for driving there and everything and get going there. so i am excited about going. i have mostly planned out my outfit, i just have to figure out the shoes that i am wearing there, i really want to get a new pair of shoes for it, because i have an idea of the ones that i want, i just cant seem to find my size anywhere in the style that i want. i guess it is because i have a popular shoe size. but anyway i am really excited about going. my daughter didnt have school today, so she went to something like a zoo, with a day camp that i put her in for the 2 days this week that they were off, she had fun, even though for some reason she was being really bad and not lisitening with i picked her up today. maybe she did so much today that she was overtired. i am trying not to get worked up about the doctors appointment that i have on monday afternoon, and i am trying not to worry about it or get stressed out, because whatever the results are going to be, they are going to be. i am just upset about the whole situation with it though. someone at my job made comment that i am always sick or have something wrong with me, and i said like i really make it happen or have any say in it whatsoever. i wish i did have a say, because then of course i wouldnt be sick. because it sucks being sick and having issues like i do. trust me. i know. i mentioned something to one of the girls that i work with, who i generally consider a friend, or thought that i did anyway, about being worried that if there is something wrong with me that i might not be able to ever have another kid. and she made a comment to me that i should be happy with the ones that i have, because she has been trying for a while now and cant even have one. which yes, it does suck for her, but still i was telling her something that was bothering me, and she didnt even act very caring. it just bothers me because i really want another child, eventually, if things ever change a little i suppose, but still, i have wanted another one for a long time in the back of my mind, and now if i cant have one because of all this i will be devasted. that is the only way that i can describe how i am going to feel if i found out that i cant have another child because of my issues. right now my "husband" is at work, he was already saying that someone at his day job was getting on his case,and saying that something was his fault when it wasnt. and then about his night job he said that the owner was getting on him about something too. that is quick considering that at the night job it is only his 2nd day there. me job isnt going that great either, it is going okay i guess. there is something going on at my job, we all just havent figured out if it is them firing people or what it is about, but someone was told that we would find out at the end of the month. i do know that my direct manager gave his resignation and that he will be leaving sometime next week. which sucks because he has been there as long as i have, he was only there a week and a half before me. i really liked him too, he was a good manager and a great guy. he was always making us laugh, he had an awesome sense of humor. i am going definetly going to miss hearing him at work. interestingly enough that guy that dumped me on my butt in october just i'med me and we have been talking for the past few minutes, he apologized and said that he is sorry, and that it was dumb for him to not keep seeing me, and that it wa a dumb choice. he also said that what ever time that we spent together would be cool and that we would have figured it out eventually. i am still talking to him now, but i took some nyquill like an hour ago, and am getting so sleepy that it isnt even funny. so i dont know how long that the conversation is going to last, or how it will end, but i will try to post more maybe tomorrow.