me lately

me lately is woman who screams and sleeps a lot. the kids have been driving me insane lately, they havent been lisitening to me worth a crap, and especially the big one have such incredible attitudes that it isnt even funny. asking them to do something simple like cleaning their room is cause for a huge argument and me losing my temper with them because of the way that they act. i have been feeling sick since last night, and have of course not felt like going anywhere which is probably another reason for them to be acting like this, is because they are going stir crazy in the house, but still it isnt like they dont have a lot of space to play in, they each have their own rooms. anyway, i have had runny nose, sneezing, headache, and just not feeling good at all. ugh. a good thing is that yesterday i just found out that i got approved for medicaid along with my children, so at least i dont have to worry about medical bills or if something happens how i am going to get medical care without having the cash to pay out for it. i didnt get food stamps or cash assistance they said that we made too much income. and not that i am not grateful for the medical only assistance that i did get, but i was really hoping to get more help then just that. the problem with how they figure things out is that they only count certain bills, and certain debts, and they dont count everything. like they dont count loans or credit cards, and we have to pay them every month, and they add up to a lot a month, which sure if we didnt have to pay them we wouldnt need help with food or anything like that, but unfortunately we have to pay them. but they dont see it that way. i was going to this one place that is associated with children and families, as long as you are pending with food stamps or approved for food stamps they give you two bags of food either every two weeks or month, but now that i was denied for food stamps that stopped too. so except for the medical, which dont get me wrong i am happy that i got, because at least that is a relief of a lot of bills, in the past and future of course, i am in the same boat that i started out with for food and gas for the cars, which is especially important considering that my boyfriend needs to go to work to make money for us to barely squeak by like we are. which is just barely being able to pay all of our bills, and having nothing left over for groceries and gas for the cars at all.