Bills Getting Paid....What About Food and Gas For The Car?

i am really depressed right now, i guess that is really the only emotion to describe it. there are other emotions too, but i guess that is the best one. me and my boyfriend were talking and i guess that i didnt think that our food money situation was as bad as it really is. it seems like we have maybe 100 dollars if we are lucky for food, and then after that, that is it. because all the money that is coming in is to pay bills, and there is no money left over after all the bills are getting paid. and he was asking me about the a food bank or pantry or something like that, yes those do give you some food, but it is like canned vegetables, fruits and rice and macaroni and things like that. what about other things that we need to eat a balanced diet, i mean if it wasnt that i was pregnant i wouldnt really care as much what i ate, but i have to eat balanced meals for the baby of course, and my two children also have to eat balanced meals too. i guess why i am so depressed is it isnt like there is an end in sight right now, where it is just like okay get by for the next month on the 100 dollars, and then you will get more money, it isnt anything like that at all. so i am depressed right now, i wish that we had never gotten my car, because that added another payment of 260 a monthonto the bills that we already have. and we could have used that money to be able to buy food without any problems. i am not depressed because i am pregnant, far from it, that is the one thing that is making me happy right now. i am just depressed because i have been in situations like this before, and i had sworn that i wasnt going to ever get into a situation like this again, where i didnt have any money, and didnt know how i was going to be able to feed my family. and now i am at that point again.

department of children and families is not being a huge bunch of help right now at all, i turned in everything that they had asked for on friday, except for a form that they said my former employer had to fill out. i gave that to my former job the day after my appointment there, which was on the 20th, and i was told that they would fax it to them, they have still not faxed it to them, and i called them on the 30th and was told that they had forwarded it to someone else in another department, wasnt given the persons name or number, and they wouldnt even say when it would be completed. so i am worried that is what is holding up the process now, i dont even have insurance right now, never mind no money for food or anything else, but the bad news is that they might not even give me food assistance, because based on just my boyfriends income, without taking into account the huge amounts of bills that we have, it looks like we are doing well. which after all the bills are paid, we are left with nothing left over at all. so i dont know. i asked someone in the dcf office yesterday what i can do because obviously my former employer isnt complying and filling out the form like i had asked them, and the person at the front desk told me to put that in a letter, along with the former employers name, address, and phone number, and give it to them. she didnt say what would happen after that, i really hope that isnt holding up my case any longer then it normally would take, i just dont know what else to do. tried calling the person that i gave the form to at my former employer this morning, she didnt answer her phone, i didnt even bother leaving a message because i am sure that she wouldnt be helpful so i am not even going to bother leaving her one for her to call me back. i am going to go now, going to take a quick shower and then drop the letter off at the dcf office, i really hope for the best with this, i hope that they process everything quickly and that this form not getting turned into them, doesnt slow down or stop the process.