No Resolution, And The Stress Of Still Not Knowing

so i was talking to the guy a lot last night both online and on the phone, and i mentioned again how not knowing what is going on or having any real definite plans is really stressing me out and upsetting me and so we discussed it. what he was saying was that if he got the job i would go up there with no job, and get a job while i was up there. and even if i had a hard time getting a job like the one that i have now with the same hours full time, that i could take a part time job for a few nights a week just to help out and pay my bills until i found something else. which that was similar to what we had discussed the other night so that wasnt really what was on my mind. what was really on my mind was he was saying that if he got the job there, that they would want him to start on the 1st. and that he should know by the lastest on like the 12th was his guess. so my issue was okay, we are planning on moving on the 13th/14th and if you get this job you wont start it on the 1st. where does that leave me on the 13th and 14th? with no where to stay if that was the plan? so he said that regardless of whether he got the job or not that we were going to move at that time. he was saying that he could go up there on the 13th (this is of course if he has the job) and get an apartment for us, then i would move by stuff up the next day on the 14th, which was the plan if we were going to be here first, and then i would be up there for about 2 weeks by myself with the kids until he started the job. which i guess is a plan, it is better then before, because at least now i feel more secure in knowing that there is something that would be done, and that at least there is a plan. i just want to know what is going on, i really hate just not knowing. he had said before that he was going to call them up tomorrow and explain that he was planning on moving and needed to know where he would be moving too. but he said that when he went to work today, that he had talked with a couple of people there, and that they had suggested that he wait until monday and that if he hadnt heard anything by then to call, and see what they had to say. and that even if they said that they were going to have to call him back, that at least by next thursday he would know. which is just so close for my comfort because on saturday we are supposed to be moving. and if we are staying here on friday he is supposed to be moving then the next day on the saturday i am supposed to be moving. so never mind reserving a truck and everything else. and also getting water set up, cable, electric all of that great stuff. this is so nerve racking to me. even though i know that there is a plan in place it is still nerve racking. and another thought is that if we are moving to the place that is three hours away, and he only finds out one or two days in advance of us actually leaving, then what about both of the kids dads? we know that my sons dad i am not going to tell anything in advance, and i am trying to make sure that he doesnt find out, not that i am completely comfortable with that, but i dont want him to lose it with me and start destroying my things or being revengeful spiteful or anything else like that. i would have maybe liked to have warned my daughters father ahead of time, but then again with his temper and the way that he acts sometimes maybe not letting him know anything in advance is a good thing too, now that i think about that. and then if he did get the job up there, and we did the plans like i stated above, then that means that i would only be giving my job a few days notice depending on when he found out versus the 13th which is a friday. because today is already the 4th, so there goes giving a 2 weeks notice and leaving on good terms anyway. i am trying not to stress out too much about it, because i am probably getting him stressed out about it too, but i am the type of person that likes to having everything all planned out and organized and this is definetly not that at all. this is everything up in the air, and unorganized, which just thinking about things being like that makes me upset. i was up until 2:30am this morning because after me and the guy had been talking online and on the phone for a few hours last night, somehow we got on the subject of me coming over his house, and of course his parents were still not there, they didnt actually get back until this morning. so anyway he was saying come over my house, so i said are you sure because i can come if you want. so in the end he said yes i really want you too, and i ended up going over his house for like 2 hours. it was nice, we didnt really do do do anything because i have the end of my period, yuck, but that does mean that i am not pregnant, which i am happy about because it just wouldnt have been good timing. so anyway, we fooled around a little bit, but it wasnt really fooling around, it was more like making love it was really good. i enjoyed it. he really did too. okay anyway, enough of that. i liked going to where he is staying now, which is his parents house, i saw his room that is there, which was interesting seeing it in person because i have always seen it through the webcam. so that was an experience. i really wanted to see it. something else worth mentioning is that on friday night (after we get off work because they are open until 8pm) he is supposed to be going with me to the finance company for my car, and he is supposed to be giving them a check of about 3,000 to pay off completely for my car. (i have already found out from the company how much is left that i owe them) he is doing this to free up some money for us so that would let me able to pay like 200 more in rent per month (which would let him pay 200 less on the rent per month), and then the other 100 that this would save me would give me and extra 75 per month to use and then 25 to save per month. him paying off for my car is such a good thing, and it will work out well for both of us. it will give us both extra money per month. i am getting really excited about it happening. even though i am getting really excited about it though i guess that i wont really completely and totally believe that it is happening until it actually does and i have the receipt that he just paid it off in my hand. even though he mentioned it to me again tonight, before he went to sleep at like 11:05pm or so, dont forget that we are going to your car place on friday to pay it off, i guess i just keep thinking that something is going to happen and that it isnt going to happen. i am trying not to think negatively because i know that being negative will get you nowhere. so i am trying my very hardest to be positive about everything including the car thing, and that it is going to happen, because he said that it would, and he hasnt gone back on anything that he has said the whole time that i have known him. and i am also trying not to worry about anything either, because worrying isnt going to change anything that is going to happen. a really nice comment that he made last night when we were together in his room was that this was nice, and that he couldnt wait until we were able to be together and just cuddle with each other and relax with each other like that every night. and then he also said that it would be nice not for him to worry about when the next time was going to be that he was going to see me, because we would be living together. those comments really made me feel good. okay well that is all the update for tonight because it is getting past midnight now and i have to get up early for work tomorrow.