the perfect man---warning

okay, so we have all established that the perfect man just doesnt exist. we all know this very well. but here is the question. what do you do when a man who seems to do good in most other departments just has a few other issues that dont work for you. i am not even going to go into the sex aspect of it right now, first i would like to say something else that really bothered me lately, you know aside from the fact that he was basically ignoring me whenever he was around. now dont get me wrong, i understand that he of course has to work to pay all our bills, that is fine, but when he is home a little bit of attention instead of absent minded uh-huhs would be nice. seemed the only time that wanted to touch me was if he wanted to have sex. (more about that in a little bit). then there is the fact that i had been asking him about going to a labor and delivery class with me, being that he has never been through it before, thinking that way he could know what to expect and also know what to do to help me. he took time off work for his nieces (goddaughters) confirmation dinner, and actual confirmation, and also said that he was going to try to take time off work for frankies graduation from preschool, which is nice....and good....but when it came to the labor and delivery classes, (which is only two nights total, and only for like three hours) he said that the way that things had been going with his work that he didnt want to take any more time off work. but yet he hasnt asked off yet for frankies graduation, and he himself voluntarily said that he would take that off work, he didnt even ask if he should go, or if i wanted him to go, or nothing like that. so what the hell. i guess that the classes that i wanted him to go to with me, just didnt rate? i really hope that when it comes down to it, and i am in labor that he is there for me. because i could just see him in a panic, not knowing what to do, and being all nervous and worried about it, because he isnt going to know what is normal or not normal, and then getting me upset because of the way that he is acting. and that is of course aside from the fact that he is supposed to be the one comforting me, not the other way around. and then there is of course the sex issue with him. i havent had an orgasm in i have no clue how long, because the one position that i can now have it in, and at the certain angle that seems to work for me, he whines that it is uncomfortable for him. so it has been a long time since i have had one because of him. i have recently took care of myself, because i was sick of waiting for him to give me something that just wasnt happening but that is enough about that. now dont think that just because i havent been having orgasms that we havent been having sex. oh no, he seems to be perfectly happy doing it the way that he wants to with me, which wont give me an orgasm because it doesnt hit the spot, and then of course there is the fact that it seems it takes him maybe 6 or a little bit more thrusts before he comes and is completely done. so he isnt even taking his time anymore, he is just doing that to finish himself off and feel good and that seems like it is all he is worried about. i put a stop to that though, at least for now, because it seemed that he was so not worried about how i felt about it that, he wouldnt even do much of anything to make me ready to start having sex with him, he just started to try to push it in regardless. and women, yes you know, that freaking hurts if you arent ready. so i told him that until he found the ky that we had a full bottle of, and it was used, that there was no sex for him. i think that it has been at least 2 days if not more since i told him that, and he hasnt found the bottle that i know of, nor has he tried anything either. but honestly, that doesnt really matter to me that much, because when we were doing it it wasnt good for me anyway, and i just didnt care about doing it, or want to a lot of times. i just wanted him to leave me alone. and he has been for the past few days. we will see how long this lasts. but back to my question------what do you do when the man you are with does pretty good with a lot of different things, but doesnt do good in other categories....like sex for example.....do you stay with him for everything good he does do, and just deal with the bad? do you do like some women do, and stay letting him take care of you, but get a man on the side to take care of you sexually? therefore basically cheating on him? a lot of women do that? what should you do? i have no doubts that i can find a man who i can have sex with, and just have him keep doing what he does for us. okay, so i would definetly wait until i wasnt pregnant anymore. but you get my point. i dont know, i just dont know.

the lawyers office did call me up today, late this afternoon, to let me know basically that the lawyer would take the case, and to tell me how much the consultation fee would be. so i tried to ask how much it would be for everything, and she said that i would have to discuss it with the lawyer, so i said fine, set me up for the consultation appointment. so she was trying to set me up for an appointment for the middle of next week, but we couldnt find a date that would go around both mine and the lawyers schedule, so she said that she would speak with the lawyer to see if they couldnt fit me in, and call me back. (this was at 3:30pm). she didnt call me back today. which i think is b.s. my boyfriend said that one of the girls that he works with gave him the number for a lawyer that she used, that was good and reasonable, so tomorrow i am probably going to call that one. because this one is giving me such a run around i feel. and it isnt like i am asking for something for nothing, i would be paying a lot of money for a lawyer i am sure. i spoke with my mom about what frankies dad was trying to do about sending him for a visit, and she completely agrees with me, not that i had any doubts that she would, but still. she feels that if he takes him, he will keep him, and said that i need to speak with the lawyer about it, and see what can be done, maybe have him bring in front of the judge know something saying that temporarily until the case is closed, that he is to remain in my care, and that any visitiation is my choice, and also that he is not to be removed from the state, or something like that, i dont know. lawyers are good at wording those things, but yeah, she also agrees with me about that being another reason that i really need a lawyer.

okay i think that is enough for tonight, i think that i vented and ranted for long enough.