Continued From Yesterday.....

the interesting thing is that my boyfriend is more interested in what is going on with the divorce then i think is normal. i would think that he would be a lot more interested in other things right now, but that is all that he has seemed to be interested in lately. i dont know why, the only thing that i can think of is because he just doesnt want me to be married to anyone else anymore, and then there is also probably the fact that i am not receiving any child support right now, because of course frankies dad wont send anything because he doesnt have an order saying that he has to right now. wonderful man right?

more on the divorce case thing, and how really really frustrated that i am with it:
i called the court regarding the last thing that i filed with them, and i was advised that they didnt see an answer to it, but that they were running late with everything and it was taking longer then usual. but it doesnt even matter, with the way that they have been doing everything that i have been filing, and denying them all, i am sure that they will deny this too. so i tried to call legal aid because someone suggested that i call them, and of course it was the same b.s. that i thought that it would be, with them saying that the only ways that they could help me was if i was the one served or if i was a victim of domestic violence, which i wasnt. and then what made it so much better was when they said that even if i was one of those things, they still wouldnt have been able to represent me, because the other party in the case had called them for help and they said that they couldnt help him, so therefore it would have been a conflict of interest. more b.s. so there went that idea so completely gone. then i tried to call a divorce lawyer to see how much they would charge to represent me, and get the case moving, and the secretary said that she would review it with the attorney and get back to me tomorrow. i hope that it isnt that expensive, and that they can just get it done from here. because i am so done with this whole thing. then i spoke with frankies dad tonight, which just annoyed and made me even more upset. as usual, he has that wonderful gift to do that to me. first he starts off by saying that frankie told him that he was told by my boyfriend that he could call him daddy, so he so completely flipped out about that. which made me really happy that i hadnt given him our actual home address, because that may have eventually let to problems. then he brought up the fact that all of the things that i have been filing with the courts have been being rejected, and that it wasnt going anywhere, so i quite nicely told him that if he responded that there wouldnt be any of these problems. which he said that he wouldnt do that right now, because he was afraid that if he did, we would get a court date immediately and then he wouldnt be able to fly up here that quickly. and then he tried something else with me. he asked me when frankie was done with school for the year and when he would be starting back up next year, so i told him, and he said that he wanted frankie to visit him for a few weeks in the summer. and i said that i didnt think that was a good idea, because i wanted the court case to be completed first, that way it was spelled out who had frankie when. and he didnt like that idea, said that probably when he came to bring frankie back then we could do everything with the courts, and he could respond. i just said that wasnt a good idea. i dont want frankie to see him without me having something from the courts in writing, saying who has frankie and when. because right now, no one has anything in writing, and i am soooo afraid that he would get frankie in the state other then this one that we live in, and then not give him back, and there wouldnt be much that i could say about it, because i have nothing saying that i am supposed to have him by the courts. and i am sure that he knows this too. so i really really hope that this lawyers office that i called today, does call me back tomorrow, and tells me that they will take the case, and also that it isnt going to be that much money, so that we could figure out a way to afford it. because honestly i really think that the only way that i am going to get anywhere with this now, because it is at a total standstill, is to hire an attorney and let them deal with it. it has been over four months and i have gotten absoluetly nowhere on my own. and the person that i spoke to at the lawyers office, looked at the case, and said that i had done absoluetely nothing wrong, and everything right. so i know that it isnt me, it is the court. geez. and now with frankies dad saying that he wants him to come out to visit after school is out, which is only in like two and a half weeks, that puts even more urgency into it for me, because i cant send him there without something in writing from the courts, i just cant. i am so scared that he would pull something and i would never see my son again. so again i really hope that the attorneys office i called today comes through for me, and we can get this going again. and then there is also the fact that i only have 38 days left until my due date, i really dont want to be called for court when i am in the hospital, or after i have just had the baby. so again, i really hope that this thing with the attorney works out tomorrow. the thing with the fifteen minutes for fifteen dollars with the attorney through the courts is nothing, it just seems that they give you legal advice, but that they dont do anything for you. and considering that according to the attorneys office i have been doing everything right, i dont think that there is anything different that they could tell me to do.