No Sex For How Long?!!!???? What?

here is the interesting thing with the guy that i have been with recently, which is something that i have never experienced with any guy that i have been with before. he doesnt seem to really care that much about having sex. i mean it seemed like he really really really liked it and everything when we did over 2 weeks ago, but for some reason he seems to think that the only place is in a hotel since he doesnt have his own place and i dont have mine, and then he is saying that isnt something that he can afford a lot at all, maybe every month or month and a half. which doesnt make me happy at all, because not that the only reason that i would be in a relationship is for sex but that does play a part in it for me. i am definetly not used to dating someone and then not having sex for a month or two months at a time. talk about weird, a guy that doesnt seem to really mind that much not having it, and isnt trying to figure out how he can get it with me. never mind in a bed, umm, parking lot, car, you get the idea. that doesnt even seem to appeal to him. at all, not that he hasnt said anything about it, but then he doesnt act on the ideas. who knows, that is very strange to me and doesnt make me happy. in case you are wondering, i still havent dumped him, and who knows i just might not dump him, because everytime that i think about it, something seems to tell me not to or hold me back and i dont. i dont even come close, i entertain the thought for a minute, and that is it. so something is majorly holding me back. last night i didnt hear from him at all, no texting no online nothing so i was wondering why that was, he said it was that his mother and sister were online so he couldnt be online. hmmm. anyway. and here i was thinking that it was because i was so "cranky" with him as he put it, that he wanted to break up with me, hmm, guess not. at least it would seem not right now. his immaturity might be getting worse and worse, let see. i texted with him a little bit on and off today, nothing new with that. and then he was online, and we didnt even really talk he said something about either quitting his job or had quit his job, and that would be back, and to hang on or something like that, and that was like an hour ago havent heard anything from him since. so who knows, that would definetly not be very mature unless he has something lined up to start right now, which i doubt cause i havent heard anything from him about that previously. so that isnt very mature right there. and the fact that he says that and i havent heard from him since like he said that he would. uh-huh. more and more going around in my mind about this.

well today at work seemed to have gone okay. we were busy, the busiest that i have seen it since i started last monday. which was okay, it was bad at all like my other job was when they were busy. it was very manageable. and i dont think that i really messed anything up or did bad on anything which is good. i was even given the chance to do a little extra work during the week or saturday to get some overtime, even though for me it wouldnt be overtime, it would just be making up for the time this week that i have to leave early for my therapy or my daughters dentist appt. but that is still good, i need to make up the time, and not be short on my paycheck. so i am going to try to come in as early as i can during the week this week, today i came in 45 minutes early which was good, cause it is so hard getting out of the bed and everything. so tomorrow hopefully i do as good as i can also with getting their early.

well, about the guy that dumped me twice (which was the guy before this one), i havent heard anything from him, which i thought was interesting because i thought that he would really be into getting his suggestion set up. not that i was really going to probably do it, but still i did entertain the thought briefly. oh well, i was really surprised that he wasnt on last night or tonight, i was expecting him to be. oh well, that is good, at least i dont have to really thing about that decision that much, cause i dont have the opportunity that much right now anyway. which is good, cause i really dont think that would have been a good idea.