A Longer Post....Maybe?

lets see how much that i type today. i dont really have anything that much to say that is new or different. i went to work today, didnt hear anything about my clothes, or really about anything else which was good. i left a little early today to go to my physical therapy appointment, and that was about it. physical therapy is okay, they are very nice there but i dont really feel like they are helping me that much. i have been going over a month now, i did see some improvement so that i wasnt in pain all the time, now i am in pain on and off, mostly when i am in the same position for a slightly long amount of time. so lets see if the mri shows anything wrong with me, the physical therapist doesnt think that it will. so we will see. i just want to get better and be back to normal, that is all that i care about. i am getting ready for my vacation that i have been planning to go on easter weekend to see my best friend and godson and also take the kids somewhere special too. so i am starting to work on that, getting directions, lists of things to pack, buying things, all of that stuff. i am getting excited about it, it is always good for me to have something to look forward too, and i am really looking forward to this trip. i just hope that the kids are good on the trip, because it is going to be a long one. it wouldnt have been quite as long, but i am dropping my mother and picking her up at a relatives house. so that is adding a lot more travel time onto it. but that is okay, i am going to pick her up to go with us to the special place i am taking the kids too also. i started taking my depression medicine about a week and a half ago, because i was getting really depressed and not for any major reasons either that i could tell, it just happens to me. so anyway, i started taking the medicine, and ever since i started taking it my sleep patterns have been really weird. in the beginning i was waking up in the middle of the night, at least one or two times, last night it was good, i didnt wake up at all, but i know that i didnt sleep still it was very restless. i realized that by myself, and then today my husband told me that last night i was sleeping very restless, tossing and turning, and i was also talking in my sleep. so i said to him what was i saying, he said he didnt know he didnt catch it or something like that, which is a good thing, cause i was worried at that moment that maybe i was talking about something that i didnt want him to know about. so hopefully that wasnt the case. the guy i have been seeing has been acting different then he usually does, last night he said that he was going to be online at 9pm and he wasnt online til 10pm so i didnt even talk to him cause i was already going to bed. and now today, he barely texted me maybe 2-3 times all day, which is very unusual for him, then he said that he would be online at 9pm tonight so tht we could talk, and it is 9:45pm, and he is not online. big surprise, he is starting to be less and less dependable with these things lately. he is dependable with what really really matters i guess, but being that i havent really talked to him all day it would have definetly been nice to have chatted with him today. oh well. i am not getting aggravated or stressed about it, whatever happens happens. at least that is what i am trying to keep telling myself anyway.