I Really Think That I Should Just Kick Him To The Curb

i am thinking that more and more, but why am i hestitating so much, in the past i know that when i have been the dumper, i have just dumped and that has been it. i dont think that that i have ever thought about it. or let it hang on this long. so what is stopping me this time? most likely the fact that in the past, when i have dumped someone, i have regretted that decision at some times, or all the time, like with HIM. it took me about a year, at least, to get over making that decision. and thinking that it was completely the wrong one to make. but anyway, let me tell you the story of why i think that i should just dump him. i was supposed to go out with the girls last night for dinner, and then go with one of them the one that i am really close to, to shoot pool with afterward, and the call him after we had been there for a while to meet us there, if he wanted to. but that didnt end up happening. the girl that i am closest to out of all of them, ended up not being able to come because of a car issue with her husband, which couldnt be prevented. so we said that we were going to have to reschedule and just not go. so i ended up making plans to go out with him. we were supposed to meet at a certain location for 8pm, i got there at about 8:05pm, which isnt that bad considering that i have to travel at least 20-30 minutes to get there. he finally got there at 8:25, therefore being 25 minutes late, and he even told me to call him when i was leaving which i did, and i had left basically on time too, about 5 minutes late, i left at 7:35am. so anyway, that started off the evening for me, because he was late and that annoyed me. what was even more annoying was that we had just had a conversation about 2 hours before that about him promising that he would be getting there before me, and about me not worrying about being there by myself waiting for him. yeah, okay, i didnt believe him at that time, and that is why. he has never been anywhere we were supposed to be meeting early, i am always sitting waiting for him. so that right there started the evening off to a wonderful start. so we had a conversation before that about where we were going to eat dinner, and everything, and then he changed everything, and we ended up eating dinner where we were meeting, which was okay, the dinner itself wasnt bad, we were talking and everything, and except for him annoying me one or two times, very slightly, it wasnt bad. then we ended up going to the movies, which was part of the original plan, and that was okay, i suppose. we watched a movie that i wasnt really that keen on seeing, it was okay, it was called ghostrider, not my type of movie that i usually go far but it was okay. throughout almost the whole movie we sat like completely seperated from each other, and everything, it was weird. i think he must have been really into the movie or something who knows. so we left there, to go somewhere else, which i wasnt that keen on going, because it was almost 1am by that time, and i was already starting to get tired because i was up early. i let him know that i wasnt to into going, and he really wanted to go. and he was of course driving his car, because i had left mine at the first place, so i was stuck going there. i was so tired when we got there, that i didnt really want to be messed with or bothered, and i didnt really hide that fact either. i was really really really ready to go about an hour later, and he started annoying me even more by trying to grab on me and get romantic with me at that time, and then i finally stood up to leave, and he got up and then said oh one more thing before we leave. and goes and gets himself something to eat, and has to sit down and eat it, when i was saying if he could get it to go or something cause i was really exhausted. so that was getting me annoyed. and then to top it all off, we have to walk all the way to his car, and we get in, and he is still trying to mess with me, and get romantic with me. ugh. so i irritated him when i said ahh, you can drive now, and he gave me this really filthy look and finally went. then we went to my car and he wanted to start up again. ugh. the whole thing was irritating me, i just wanted to go home to my bed, and he was stopping me from doing that. with the time change i ended up not being in bed til 4:45am, which would have been 3:45am normally. we were texting on the way home, and for some part of today, and he didnt seem like he was really upset with me because of the way that i had acted or anything, which was surprising to me, i would have thought that he would have been upset with the way that i had treated him. but he didnt seem to be. but then again i havent heard from him since maybe 4pm, which is strange for him because normally i would hear from him at night either online mostly, or very rarely texting if he cant come online. hmm, interesting. not that i really care, cause i am considering more seriously then i ever have breaking up with him. and then there is the no sex thing with him, that is bad too, but i am not going to go into that now, maybe tomorrow. oh, something else just to mention, friday night i was chatting with the ex that i had before this one, the one that dumped me twice, and big surprise he wants to hook up with me again. not be in a relationship or anything though, cause he said that isnt what he wants in his life right now, but a friends with benefits thing. so we had said that we would talk more about it this weekend because i had said that i wanted to think about it more, and he was saying that he needed to go to bed, and then that was that, i havent heard from him since, he wasnt on tonight, and i wasnt on last night. but i dont know, i dont really think that i want that. more tomorrow if i can about that too.