Happy Easter Egg Hunt Day

well, today i took the kids to an easter egg hunt by my ex's house, put on by the city that he lives in. it was a lot of fun for the kids, they got a some eggs, and something that really made an impression on my son was that they had a city fire department truck there with the firemen, and they were letting the kids go in it, and also speak with the firemen. so not only did my son get to go in the drivers seat, he also got to get in the back seat of the truck and also stand on the back of the truck. and then after all of that he got to talk to the captain fireman, and tell him that he wanted to be a fireman when he grows up, he really enjoyed all of that. i, of course, took some pictures of the day, some of which i will post on here today, and the rest of them have to wait until i develop them, whenever that is. hopefully sometime soon. here are the pictures from today:







i think that they came out really good, more pictures to come once they are developed. when i have a chance i am also going to put some pictures on here from when i went to dinner with my boyfriend and his cousin. yes, my boyfriend. it feels so weird to say that. but after two months (today makes 8 weeks that we have been going out) i suppose that i really do have to start calling him that. i am supposed to be going out with him tonight, so if i have a chance tomorrow i will update on that and everything else that is going on right now with me.

A Longer Post....Maybe?

lets see how much that i type today. i dont really have anything that much to say that is new or different. i went to work today, didnt hear anything about my clothes, or really about anything else which was good. i left a little early today to go to my physical therapy appointment, and that was about it. physical therapy is okay, they are very nice there but i dont really feel like they are helping me that much. i have been going over a month now, i did see some improvement so that i wasnt in pain all the time, now i am in pain on and off, mostly when i am in the same position for a slightly long amount of time. so lets see if the mri shows anything wrong with me, the physical therapist doesnt think that it will. so we will see. i just want to get better and be back to normal, that is all that i care about. i am getting ready for my vacation that i have been planning to go on easter weekend to see my best friend and godson and also take the kids somewhere special too. so i am starting to work on that, getting directions, lists of things to pack, buying things, all of that stuff. i am getting excited about it, it is always good for me to have something to look forward too, and i am really looking forward to this trip. i just hope that the kids are good on the trip, because it is going to be a long one. it wouldnt have been quite as long, but i am dropping my mother and picking her up at a relatives house. so that is adding a lot more travel time onto it. but that is okay, i am going to pick her up to go with us to the special place i am taking the kids too also. i started taking my depression medicine about a week and a half ago, because i was getting really depressed and not for any major reasons either that i could tell, it just happens to me. so anyway, i started taking the medicine, and ever since i started taking it my sleep patterns have been really weird. in the beginning i was waking up in the middle of the night, at least one or two times, last night it was good, i didnt wake up at all, but i know that i didnt sleep still it was very restless. i realized that by myself, and then today my husband told me that last night i was sleeping very restless, tossing and turning, and i was also talking in my sleep. so i said to him what was i saying, he said he didnt know he didnt catch it or something like that, which is a good thing, cause i was worried at that moment that maybe i was talking about something that i didnt want him to know about. so hopefully that wasnt the case. the guy i have been seeing has been acting different then he usually does, last night he said that he was going to be online at 9pm and he wasnt online til 10pm so i didnt even talk to him cause i was already going to bed. and now today, he barely texted me maybe 2-3 times all day, which is very unusual for him, then he said that he would be online at 9pm tonight so tht we could talk, and it is 9:45pm, and he is not online. big surprise, he is starting to be less and less dependable with these things lately. he is dependable with what really really matters i guess, but being that i havent really talked to him all day it would have definetly been nice to have chatted with him today. oh well. i am not getting aggravated or stressed about it, whatever happens happens. at least that is what i am trying to keep telling myself anyway.

A Very Brief Update

just wanted to post here and say that i am alive, just have been busy with the things that i have going on. i am still going to physical therapy two times a week, and it hasnt even been helping, i have been going for almost two months now. so finally the intelligent doctor that i have to see every week and does basically nothing is trying to get me to have an mri, so hopefully i will be able to do that soon, and maybe find out why i am still in pain on and off and it just doesnt seem to be going away on its own.

my job is okay i suppose, nothing major has happened with it. they are just so strict and so different from what i was used to from before. for example, i was wearing a shirt today that i have worn many times before that is black and just has green lettering that says hope. and that is it. i was told today to put my jacket on because it was against dress code. so i had to walk around all day with my jacket zipped up. just great, then of course we cant stand up and talk we cant talk really at all to each other, it is just ridiculous at times. it is really taking getting used to. so i am trying to adjust to all of that.

i am still with my "boyfriend" i guess that you would call him. he called me his girlfriend, and introduced me as his girlfriend yesterday when i met his cousin who is down from new york and is going back tomorrow. yes that is right, i got to meet one of his family members last night, we went to dinner with his cousin, it was a all of the sudden thing but it was nice. very nice. she was nice, one year younger then him, so three years younger then me. i had a nice time, me and him had a nice time together, i enjoyed his company, and he actually bought me dinner, he paid for the whole thing. wow. that was unusual. but anyway, next saturday makes two months that we have been going out, that by itself is amazing to me. i kind of like it though. we have actually known each other, through internet first for 4 months total.

How Could It Be That Good?

okay i am not going to go totally into it and go all X rated, because so far i think i have been able to keep this blog at least PG-13 rated. so i am not going to give all the details, but i am going to say with this is so amazing to me. so if this portion of my life (sex) is something you dont want to know about, stop reading now.

if you are still reading, here is what i find so amazing, and the record that we/he set on saturday night. it is very difficult for me to have an orgasm with the guy on top, i guess because when i am on top i can control it and make myself have an orgasm very easily. i cant remember the last one that i have had one with the guy on top, it has been a very very very long time. so anyway not only did he make me have an orgasm while he was on top, but he picked just the right moment to do what he was doing harder, and increase the amount of the orgasm and how it felt. (i was screaming.) that wasnt the record that he had set though, because even thought it is extremely extremely rare, that was something that had been done before. what hadnt been done before, was me having an orgasm in a car. that had never happened. and he managed that one too. amazing to me. really it is. so that was it, an interesting peek into why i was so amazed.

Pleasantly Surprised

i am really pleasantly surprised about the occurences of last night. i am still thinking about what happened that is how surprised that i am. but before i get into that: First of all, i guess that maybe i was a little hard on him the other night when i was blogging, but he was sounding really immature. what he did in the end, which was pretty mature, was take back the old job that he had tutoring, that he had just quit, and made it for two days a week. and he is going to keep that until he gets something else, which at least more mature then just not having a job at all, and having other people taking care of you. So that made me feel better about his maturity level. I had a huge argument with my "husband" on friday night, i mean a huge argument, he was saying that i dont really do anything around the house and that i am incredibly lazy and that my moods are really bad. i go from being incredibly mean, to nice, to really sad like really quick. which i have to agree too, i have been trying to handle everything for a little while, over a year without medicine, but yes i do agree that i need to go back on it, because i dont cope with things very well at all. and the lazy around the house, it isnt that i am lazy, it just is that i am still in pain when i stand for long periods of time with my knee and ankle which i am still in physical therapy for. so that is why i dont really clean up a lot or doing much around the house. so that was true too, it wasnt really what he said is how he said it though. as usual, he just doesnt know a good way to speak to you. in the end we kind of came to an understanding he is going to try to do better with the issues he needs to work on, and i am going to look into getting medicine again, and also on trying my best to do more around the house. he is having job issues again though with the one job that he has left, he had gotten hit by a car i think it was thurs, i dont remember which probably thursday, and he was in a lot of pain the next day. but he still went to work and did his best, but he said that they were upset with him because he wasnt going fast enough and they sent him home. then today he went there and he said that they were claiming that he was there late, and they wrote him up for that. so he said that he needs to find another job, because they said that they are going to be cutting back on hours and they were treating him bad, and he works hard for them blah, blah, same old story. but anyway, he was saying that he is going to look for another job, and that it might have to be at night, because he might not be able to find a day job, and he probably would have to work on a saturday night. which isnt good for me, because that means that i would have to see if my friend who had said that she could once before could watch the kids so that i could keep going on saturday nights, or figure something else out. rescheduling to another night, unless it is a friday night wouldnt really work because then i have to work the next day. so i cant go out and do that. that is out of the question. and he has to already ask for monday and wednesday nights off, so that he can watch my son. ugh. i just hope that i dont have to think about this now. and then my car's check engine light came on today, and wouldnt turn off. so i started freaking out because i just spent 1300 dollars on it, between a complete braking system redo on it, and the water pump and belt. and i am saving my money, which most of it is going to come out of my tax return, because i am planning on going to orlando for easter weekend. and taking the kids to disney world too, which should be really nice, my daughter has only been one time four years ago, and my son has never been. so the money that i should really be saving in case of emergencies or in case i need it, i am going to be using most of it on the trip, but i am not getting upset about that, it is my decision, because i need to something for me and the kids. and i am really looking forward to it. i cant wait to see my best friend and my godson, and also to take my kids to disney. so last night was pretty good, that is what i was talking about in the beginning. when the night first started, i left the house, called him like i always do to tell him that i am leaving, so he knows when to be ready to meet me. so i called him, and he just started talking about his schooling and a whole bunch of other stuff, like nonstop for like 10 minutes, it got so bad at one point that i was considering turning around and going back home. so instead i started to talk to him and tell him that is an issue, and that he can really ramble at times, and a few other things, and it was a pretty okay conversation, he understood, said that a few other people had told him that before too, and didnt seem to be offended, he actually seemed to appreciate me telling him, and after that for the rest of the night he was a lot better with all of that, and i didnt find him annoying or anything, it was a really good night. a few weird and or interesting things happened during the night, the first thing was that when we were pulling up at a light, he spotted his dad at the light, and pulled up next to him, nothing else really happened because his windows dont open on his car, but his dad saw me in the car. then not even 5 minutes later his mom called him and wanted to talk about it for a minute. basically that conversation was her saying that his dad had told her and that the other thing that she mentioned was that whenever we wanted to come over to the house, i guess for her to meet me, that we were welcome to. so he replied that when we were ready to do that we would, which he told me would be quite a while, which sounds good to me. then he told me that he was going to be graduating in december with his bachelor's and he wants his masters, and doctorate which would take at least another 2 years, so i was making comments like i dont know where i would be in 2 years, and he was saying that he would still be living with his parents, so you do the math, can you imagine me in the same position that i am not in 2 years. i dont know if i could make it both physically and especially mentally. if he isnt planning on moving out for another 2 years at least, and nothing changes to where i cant afford a place on my own, i dont think that would be able or want to stay the way i am for 2 years. then when we were at leaving the restaurant after eating dinner, he ran into someone that he knew, and when he was making introductions, he said to the guy "this is my.....paused and then said....this is dawn". so i let it go then and when we had left i said to him what was that, what am i to you exacly. so he said that he didnt want to say girlfriend cause he didnt know if i would be embarassed or upset, so i no, that i wouldnt be. and we basically left it at that. we saw a movie, went for dinner, then after dinner, we went to a location, and umm had some enjoyable moments in his car. i mean really enjoyable, for both of us. he actually accomplished something for me that hasnt been done before in a car. so he set a record. lol. so i made a comment to him that hopefully it wont be another 3 weeks before it happened again, and he made it seem like it wouldnt, he said that was something that he definetly wanted to happen again soon. so that is good, cause that 3 weeks between times sucks big time. especially being that both times so far that it has happened, it has been really really really good. he has skills. then interestingly enough, i not only had dreams that i could remember, which is unusual for me as it is, but they were sexual, which is even more unusual for me. i got so happy by it, that i um, okay never mind. some things dont need to be mentioned here. so okay, i think that everything is caught up on here now, i cant think of anything else.

Pictures Of The Kids (from this weekend)

LLLLLLLLOSER

talk about your cases of deja vu, tell me if this sounds familiar, quitting a job just because you dont like it, or the way that they are treating you, or blah blah blah. you get the picture. that is what the guy did, he quit his job that he had, that he was always bragging about what good money that he made their, and he had no job lined up either. so that isnt good, at all, talk about irresponsible. he says that he quit because it was too much driving, and also because he felt he was helping the students (he was tutoring) and whole bunch of other crap. he said that when he quit the manager of it said that it was about time for him to quit anyway, because the students were saying stuff about him (that he says wasnt true) and also because they werent learning from him. he also said that he wasnt enjoying it. and he is only maybe 6 months to a year from graduating and having a degree to be a teacher, and now he is saying that isnt what he wants to do anymore, and that he wants to do something with liberal arts, which will probably take him a little bit longer to graduate. he doesnt know what profession he would use that for, he also doesnt know what job that he is going to look for right now, and he hasnt even started looking. so i am seriously thinking of booting his butt, now even more then before, and yes there is a little something holding me back from booting him, but it is definetly not as strong as it was before. now it seems like it is only there a little bit, so we will have to see about that. it is ridiculous right now even talking to him, on one hand he is saying that he has options when it comes to getting a job for now, so then i say oh yeah what options is that, and then he says that he doesnt know. and he has been lisitening to what his family is telling him to instead of making his own desicions. very immature for doing that, and of course very irresponsible for quitting a job without already having another lined up and ready for you to start. so in my book right now, he has lost so many points. and with the stunts on friday night the 2nd, and the annoying me last saturday night, he is really losing those points soooo quickly. oop, he just lost even more points, i said to him something about him probably needing to find a job really quick, and he said that if anything his grandmother would help him out financially. so i was like you wouldnt want to do it on your own. so he said why dont you have family to help you, i was like uhhh. i wouldnt ask them you need to do it on your own like an adult. sooo immature, i cant believe the amount of immaturity that he has. or i should say how immature he is acting right now, i have never heard him or seen him be this bad, saying that if he has a problem his grandmother would just help him out. oh no biggie, my grandmother can just support my grown ass 24 year old self, i am not an adult i dont need to support myself. i am telling you, more and more i am losing respect for him and thinking of him more and more as extremely immature.

i forgot to post the pictures yesterday night, cause i was so distracted, but here are pictures of my son playing the new drum set that i bought him on sunday. (my daughter wanted a baby doll, i didnt get to take a picture of her though.) yes i know that was kind of dumb to buy him a drum set, but i told him that he could only play it in his room, and so far he has been lisitening, and thankfully we have split bedrooms so it isnt that loud if he plays it in his room. but when he played it at 6am on monday morning, and woke up the whole house playing it in his room that wasnt even funny. that was not a happy wake up call. anyway here are the pictures:

No Sex For How Long?!!!???? What?

here is the interesting thing with the guy that i have been with recently, which is something that i have never experienced with any guy that i have been with before. he doesnt seem to really care that much about having sex. i mean it seemed like he really really really liked it and everything when we did over 2 weeks ago, but for some reason he seems to think that the only place is in a hotel since he doesnt have his own place and i dont have mine, and then he is saying that isnt something that he can afford a lot at all, maybe every month or month and a half. which doesnt make me happy at all, because not that the only reason that i would be in a relationship is for sex but that does play a part in it for me. i am definetly not used to dating someone and then not having sex for a month or two months at a time. talk about weird, a guy that doesnt seem to really mind that much not having it, and isnt trying to figure out how he can get it with me. never mind in a bed, umm, parking lot, car, you get the idea. that doesnt even seem to appeal to him. at all, not that he hasnt said anything about it, but then he doesnt act on the ideas. who knows, that is very strange to me and doesnt make me happy. in case you are wondering, i still havent dumped him, and who knows i just might not dump him, because everytime that i think about it, something seems to tell me not to or hold me back and i dont. i dont even come close, i entertain the thought for a minute, and that is it. so something is majorly holding me back. last night i didnt hear from him at all, no texting no online nothing so i was wondering why that was, he said it was that his mother and sister were online so he couldnt be online. hmmm. anyway. and here i was thinking that it was because i was so "cranky" with him as he put it, that he wanted to break up with me, hmm, guess not. at least it would seem not right now. his immaturity might be getting worse and worse, let see. i texted with him a little bit on and off today, nothing new with that. and then he was online, and we didnt even really talk he said something about either quitting his job or had quit his job, and that would be back, and to hang on or something like that, and that was like an hour ago havent heard anything from him since. so who knows, that would definetly not be very mature unless he has something lined up to start right now, which i doubt cause i havent heard anything from him about that previously. so that isnt very mature right there. and the fact that he says that and i havent heard from him since like he said that he would. uh-huh. more and more going around in my mind about this.

well today at work seemed to have gone okay. we were busy, the busiest that i have seen it since i started last monday. which was okay, it was bad at all like my other job was when they were busy. it was very manageable. and i dont think that i really messed anything up or did bad on anything which is good. i was even given the chance to do a little extra work during the week or saturday to get some overtime, even though for me it wouldnt be overtime, it would just be making up for the time this week that i have to leave early for my therapy or my daughters dentist appt. but that is still good, i need to make up the time, and not be short on my paycheck. so i am going to try to come in as early as i can during the week this week, today i came in 45 minutes early which was good, cause it is so hard getting out of the bed and everything. so tomorrow hopefully i do as good as i can also with getting their early.

well, about the guy that dumped me twice (which was the guy before this one), i havent heard anything from him, which i thought was interesting because i thought that he would really be into getting his suggestion set up. not that i was really going to probably do it, but still i did entertain the thought briefly. oh well, i was really surprised that he wasnt on last night or tonight, i was expecting him to be. oh well, that is good, at least i dont have to really thing about that decision that much, cause i dont have the opportunity that much right now anyway. which is good, cause i really dont think that would have been a good idea.

I Really Think That I Should Just Kick Him To The Curb

i am thinking that more and more, but why am i hestitating so much, in the past i know that when i have been the dumper, i have just dumped and that has been it. i dont think that that i have ever thought about it. or let it hang on this long. so what is stopping me this time? most likely the fact that in the past, when i have dumped someone, i have regretted that decision at some times, or all the time, like with HIM. it took me about a year, at least, to get over making that decision. and thinking that it was completely the wrong one to make. but anyway, let me tell you the story of why i think that i should just dump him. i was supposed to go out with the girls last night for dinner, and then go with one of them the one that i am really close to, to shoot pool with afterward, and the call him after we had been there for a while to meet us there, if he wanted to. but that didnt end up happening. the girl that i am closest to out of all of them, ended up not being able to come because of a car issue with her husband, which couldnt be prevented. so we said that we were going to have to reschedule and just not go. so i ended up making plans to go out with him. we were supposed to meet at a certain location for 8pm, i got there at about 8:05pm, which isnt that bad considering that i have to travel at least 20-30 minutes to get there. he finally got there at 8:25, therefore being 25 minutes late, and he even told me to call him when i was leaving which i did, and i had left basically on time too, about 5 minutes late, i left at 7:35am. so anyway, that started off the evening for me, because he was late and that annoyed me. what was even more annoying was that we had just had a conversation about 2 hours before that about him promising that he would be getting there before me, and about me not worrying about being there by myself waiting for him. yeah, okay, i didnt believe him at that time, and that is why. he has never been anywhere we were supposed to be meeting early, i am always sitting waiting for him. so that right there started the evening off to a wonderful start. so we had a conversation before that about where we were going to eat dinner, and everything, and then he changed everything, and we ended up eating dinner where we were meeting, which was okay, the dinner itself wasnt bad, we were talking and everything, and except for him annoying me one or two times, very slightly, it wasnt bad. then we ended up going to the movies, which was part of the original plan, and that was okay, i suppose. we watched a movie that i wasnt really that keen on seeing, it was okay, it was called ghostrider, not my type of movie that i usually go far but it was okay. throughout almost the whole movie we sat like completely seperated from each other, and everything, it was weird. i think he must have been really into the movie or something who knows. so we left there, to go somewhere else, which i wasnt that keen on going, because it was almost 1am by that time, and i was already starting to get tired because i was up early. i let him know that i wasnt to into going, and he really wanted to go. and he was of course driving his car, because i had left mine at the first place, so i was stuck going there. i was so tired when we got there, that i didnt really want to be messed with or bothered, and i didnt really hide that fact either. i was really really really ready to go about an hour later, and he started annoying me even more by trying to grab on me and get romantic with me at that time, and then i finally stood up to leave, and he got up and then said oh one more thing before we leave. and goes and gets himself something to eat, and has to sit down and eat it, when i was saying if he could get it to go or something cause i was really exhausted. so that was getting me annoyed. and then to top it all off, we have to walk all the way to his car, and we get in, and he is still trying to mess with me, and get romantic with me. ugh. so i irritated him when i said ahh, you can drive now, and he gave me this really filthy look and finally went. then we went to my car and he wanted to start up again. ugh. the whole thing was irritating me, i just wanted to go home to my bed, and he was stopping me from doing that. with the time change i ended up not being in bed til 4:45am, which would have been 3:45am normally. we were texting on the way home, and for some part of today, and he didnt seem like he was really upset with me because of the way that i had acted or anything, which was surprising to me, i would have thought that he would have been upset with the way that i had treated him. but he didnt seem to be. but then again i havent heard from him since maybe 4pm, which is strange for him because normally i would hear from him at night either online mostly, or very rarely texting if he cant come online. hmm, interesting. not that i really care, cause i am considering more seriously then i ever have breaking up with him. and then there is the no sex thing with him, that is bad too, but i am not going to go into that now, maybe tomorrow. oh, something else just to mention, friday night i was chatting with the ex that i had before this one, the one that dumped me twice, and big surprise he wants to hook up with me again. not be in a relationship or anything though, cause he said that isnt what he wants in his life right now, but a friends with benefits thing. so we had said that we would talk more about it this weekend because i had said that i wanted to think about it more, and he was saying that he needed to go to bed, and then that was that, i havent heard from him since, he wasnt on tonight, and i wasnt on last night. but i dont know, i dont really think that i want that. more tomorrow if i can about that too.

new tattoo picture

so there is the picture of my new tattoo, not sure if i mentioned where it is before, but it is my right side, upper part of my back area. i like it a lot, it came out really good.

so okay, so far i am supposed to be having lunch with the guy tomorrow, so lets see what happens with that, if he cancels on me giving another reason, who knows. i am trying to give him a chance with an open mind and try not to think about what he did and how dumb he was on friday night, but it is hard cause it keeps just running through my head. so anyway, as it stands now, i am supposed to be seeing him tomorrow for lunch. i also found out that the check that i put in the bank today, expecting it to go to my account either tomorrow or saturday wont be posting on there until monday morning. which could cause issues for me because i have a dentists appt sat during the day, was supposed to be going grocery shopping (but might have to forget that idea, probably have to go during the beginning of next week) and also was supposed to be going out at night with the girls, and possibly meeting him too, but i hadnt decided on if i want to expose more of my friends to him yet, cause what if he acts dumb again, and embarrases the hell out of me and my friends. but anyway, about my bank account issue, i asked my ex if i could borrow a little bit from him and give it back to him on monday, since i dont know if i will have enough money, but as i had figured he said no, cause he is having his car towed to the mechanic tomorrow, and he doesnt know what is wrong with it. he is actually borrowing my car tomorrow, so that he can get to work while his car is at the mechanics. yeah, yeah, i know, i am being nice, scary huh. he does a lot for me though, so i figured that it is only fair. my job has been going okay i suppose, they are a lot more stricter and have a lot more rules then the other part i worked for. i made a mistake a few weeks ago, before i was even with this part of the company, and they had to talk to me about it, and tell me to bring the stuff like that to the supervisor to look over from now on before it is sent. so they want to monitor my work even more now. they are very particular it seems about everything, and i am not used to that at all. the other thing that i am not used to is that it is so slow there at times, i am sitting down doing nothing sometimes for 20-30 minutes at a time just looking at my phone just waiting for it to ring. bored because there is no other work to be done right then. not that i am really complaining because it is nice at times, but all day it being like that can get to be a little much, i almost fell asleep a few times today, especially after i ate lunch. here are a few of the things that i was so busy working on today: (haha)





nice right? yeah okay. anyway. i chatted with HIM, who i havent talked to in a while, online the other night. i think it was tuesday night. and we i'med for a little while, he is happy it seems now, has a girlfriend who he has been with for five months, and says that he is really happy with her. which is good for him. i am not jealous or anything like that, the only thing that i wish is that i could be as happy in my life as he seemed. the other one that he was with is over, probably because he cheated on her with this one, who knows. i didnt want to and didnt ask. he was asking about my new guy, cause it says on my space and everything that i am with someone, and he is great, blah blah. so i just said that he was okay, not that great, did something dumb, and that we werent really really serious, and he asked why and i said because i didnt want us to be, that was about it for that. he also mentioned that he had just gotten a promotion at work, some type of inventory manager or something like that, so i was thinking wow i bet that he is making good money now, he is only making 10.00 an hour he said, and i make 15.50 an hour, but there you go, one of the reasons that i was getting upset with him in the end of us, was because he had no ambition and seemed to be going nowhere. so look at that, in over a year and a half he is making maybe 1.50 more an hour then he was, and i am making about 4.00 an hour more then i was at that time. uh-huh. my point is made. he wasnt feeling well he said, after we had talked for a little while and said that he was going to bed. and that was the end of the conversation.

My New Tattoo

i finally went and got a second tattoo, i have wanted it for so long, and couldnt even really afford it right now, but figured that since i was getting back my tax return and also since i had already used 1300 dollars of it for my car and on nothing for myself, that i deserved it. and also since i had been telling myself for over 2 years since my last one that i wanted another one, that i finally deserved it. so i had it done on monday night (03/05/07). i would put up a picture of it, but right now blogger is working when i try to post the picture, so until i can get the picture posted, you can check out my space page. (for those of you who know the address for it) i want to have a record of my piercings and tattoos so i dont forget when i have gotten them. here it is:

1st ear piercing--7 years old
2nd ear piercing--14 years old
Belly piercing--July 2004
3rd ear piercing--Nov 2004
1st tattoo--Dec 2004
Nose piercing (1st time)--July 2005
4th and 5th ear piercings--Jan 2006
Nose piercing (2nd time)--Sept 2006
2nd tattoo--March 2007

So lets see what i get next now. Hmm, i guess that another piercing would be next on that schedule, probably more in my ears. gotta let this heal all up first, i can only deal with one of them at time though.

well, me and the guy are doing okay right now i suppose, we had an issue last friday night at my friends 30th party. the dinner was nice, everyone had a really nice time there. he wasnt supposed to go there, and he didnt of course, it was just invited people only there, which was good. the only thing that bugged me a little bit about it was that my friend had told everyone 5pm for the time the dinner started, but she didnt actually get there until about 7pm. and i got there at 6:15, and sat there for about 45 minutes by myself. which sucked, but anyway once she got there it was nice. and i had a nice time. i was dressed to kill too, went shopping with her the night before, had a hot outfit on, hair done, makeup done, jewelry shoes you name it. i went all out. so anyway, after the dinner then we went to the club as planned, and he had been planning and wanting to meet me there when we got there at 10pm. instead he didnt get there til about 12:30am and then when he got there he was horrible. he embarrassed the hell out of me and my friend my several antics that he did that he thought was funny, and then he also talked my ear off for like an hour and wouldnt shut up, all about an issue that he had that happened to him earlier that day. that he couldnt get over, and he had to drag me down with, or try to anyway. so anyway, we finally left, and i had it out with him about it. not that i was yelling or anything like that, i just let him know that i was very very upset with him. i havent seen him since friday night. we were supposed to be going out on saturday night, and we didnt go out, i told him that me and my friend were having girls night out. and then all this week i have been making excuses. i just needed a rest from him after that. then today he was saying we would do lunch tomorrow, and then he just cancelled it on me saying that he had forgotten that he had to work at that time, and now he said this friday for lunch. i dont even really care that much anymore. i am starting to care less and less. then i was supposed to have a girls night this sat night, we were supposed to go out to dinner (just girls) then afterward go and shoot pool with just me and my friend that i am closest with from work, and he was going to meet us there when i called him. so now after how he acted with my other friend, i am not so sure about that. so i have been making an excuse of seeing how i feel because i have a dentists appointment that morning, which is true, i have it at noon. so if i dont want to, i just wont see him, i dont know yet i am just nervous now of him being around my friends that he is going to do something dumb again. even though he has sworn that he wont. yeah okay, whatever.

My Super Villian Results

Your results:
You are Catwoman

Catwoman		38%
Dark Phoenix		34%
Poison Ivy		32%
Juggernaut		32%
Dr. Doom		29%
Mystique		28%
Apocalypse		27%
Lex Luthor		26%
Kingpin		25%
Magneto		23%
Venom		18%
Mr. Freeze		15%
Riddler		15%
The Joker		14%
Green Goblin		4%
Two-Face		4%

With a troubled past and an upbringing on the streets you have learned how to fend for yourself through crime.