Make Up Your Flipping Mind

my boyfriend has been driving me nuts the past few days. last night especially. his parents came over, and his they, his father especially, have been trying to push mike into renting a place, i am assuming once our lease is up, instead of buying something, because they are claiming something about the market still going down, and also that he doesnt have the money for it right now too. but that isnt even the best part, the best part is that his dad really, has been pushing him to talk to some guy that lives like four houses down from them, and see if we can sign an extended lease (longer then a year) with him. and after how much my boyfriend has been going on and on about how he doesnt want to rent anymore, and that he wants to buy something, because he feels like he is wasting his money renting, that isnt what he has wanted. and i also said to him what is the point of us moving if we are just going to be paying basically the same thing in rent, and still be renting. why move then? it doesnt make sense to me. his father really pissed me off last night because he was really pushing for us to move right near him, and then when i tried to get into the conversation and say something, he talked down to me like i was a two year old. which is something that not even my parents do to me. so that pissed me off even more then the fact that my boyfriend was just sitting there, and not saying anything. i was so close to telling him off and saying something, it took every single ounce of my self control not to. because then it wouldnt have been pretty, because i would have just let him have it. and my boyfriend too. so when they left i put my foot down, and started going off on my boyfriend. i will not be signing a lease for more then a year, unless the option to buy is in there, and also unless it is a for an incredible price. which i am sure isnt going to happen, because those houses are going for $250k and i think that all my boyfriend could pay would be like 80-100k. so i dont see that one happening. and i told him that he was driving me nuts because he couldnt seem to make up his mind what he wanted to do. and his parents as usual, seemed to push him around. who knows how much of a difference that it made. he did call his dad up a little while after that, and tell him that he doesnt want to sign a long term lease, unless with the rent to buy in there, and for a good price, but who knows if that helped. or what. i am getting annoyed with these people trying to run his life, and also with them offering their strong "opinions" whether it is wanted or not. which i never want it. i make my own decisions and i come to my own conclusions. it was fine when he was single, if he wanted his parents to run his life, or try to, but now he isnt single anymore, his parents being like this doesnt effect just him, it effects me, and the kids too. so that cant happen. i doubt if his little conversation with his father will even make a difference, i am sure that he will be exactly the way that he was before.

tomorrow is my appointment for my sonogram, and then after that i am going to see the doctor. i hope that everything goes okay, and that they dont find anything wrong. i just want the baby to be healthy. everyone has been looking forward to tomorrow to find out what the baby is a boy or a girl, my boyfriend not really, but i think that other people have. and i dont mind if i dont find out what the baby is, i just want the baby to be healthy, thats it. i dont want them to find anything wrong.

i have outgrown most of my clothes, both the ones that we had bought during the beginning of the pregnancy, and the ones that i already had. i only have a few outfits that fit me. and i am getting frustrated because it isnt like i can walk into a maternity clothing store, and just buy whatever i want. because we dont have the money for that, right now we dont have even have the money for me to buy one outfit in a maternity store. the reason that i am annoyed isnt because i am pregnant and am outgrowing my clothes, that is definetly not it, i am happy that i am pregnant. i am just annoyed (with my boyfriend really, because he will spend his money on other things, like lunch, but not clothes for me) that there isnt any money for me to buy clothes. supposedly he was saying that maybe in a week or two weeks i should be able to get some, like $100 worth, which would be better then what i have now. so i really hope so.